1. I discovered that my 'bff' is having another life and in her new life I'm only a shipping address, twenty bucks cheaper than her country. I have intimacy issues. When I get too close, I don't detach easily.
2. My new friend in school, whom I already dislike because of the country she's from (again. I'm not a racist, I'm a nationalist!), called me Felicia on facebook and asked me to correct her paper. What the fuck? I knew you for two minutes and here you are hijacking my life. Nationalist-theory trumps.
3. Out of awkwardness and desperation I asked my cousin (B) to join me taking flamenco classes. I can't do on Mondays and Wednesdays. She can't do on Mondays and Thursdays. On real life, Spanish dancers actually dance on Friday nights. No one offers classes on Tuesdays. So it's either the elderly classes on Sunday or the toddler classes on Saturday. Geez I gotta search harder.
4. I have three outlines due next week and two midterms the day after the due dates. I'm still watching 30 Rock instead of the documentary of the bloody gory East Timor that I have to watch just to get 'references'. I haven't even begun typing Dali in the search engine and yet here I am blogging because megavideo decides to let me wait for 54 minutes because I've watched 72 minutes of 30 Rock today!
5. My eyes are puffy and my head is heavy because I fought majorly with Husky last night. Just to found out that I'm too dependent, too comfortable and too weak to actually want to have a family and babies and dogs with him. Oh I tell you, he's pretty strong when he wants to.
6. I'm watching a hell lot of Senator McCarthy. BARF BARF BARF.
7. Just to add to the abnormality, the Winter Olympics is here and last week I watched 4 live-size northern horses mounted by the Royal Canadian Mountain Police patrolling downtown. Geez they don't have horses in Jakarta anymore with the exception to the outskirts area but man are those horses HUGE! They make those Javanese horses look like ponies. Yes it's freaking weird to see horses and downtown in a same sentence. Did I mention I was buying daily coffee and the horses just trotting in front of the coffee house? Next time you hit Starbucks for a daily dose of caffeine, be prepared, because you don't know what's lurking by the corner. Might be a horse. Or four.
Why can't life be simple, just work. And love tags along. So I can have different lovers in different week, while I can focus on the big propaganda plan to bring down non-state actors and establish a country based only on realpolitik, but with post-modernist approach.
On a soft mushy side of life, maybe I can just have one lover who can handle my mood-swing and take me down each fight. We can have love, peace and rock and roll in different country each different week. When we're old enough we can settle down in somewhere sunny (where cars and houses are affordable and nudity is perceived as a form of art instead of moral insult - I gotta thing for roman-greco statues) and instead of babies, we raise puppies and eat beef. That country must have Kiehl's because their shampoos are the best, I can't stop touching my hair right now.